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They didn't do anything besides have a good time. Maybe be a bit obnoxiously cute, if you ask me. Hardly a crime.
[Marc needs a minute or two to understand. he isn't the smart one here okay? his monkey brain immediately assumed someone physically went for Steven or hurt his feelings intentionally. but this... makes him think of some other conversations they've had.]
But it made you feel bad?
But it made you feel bad?
Not at first, I thought they were cute. Happy. Sharing a snack, a book, and a laugh. It's nice to see people happy.
[ Snort. ]They weren't being obnoxious, Marc. They were being sweet. Like people in love. I can't begrudge that and you shouldn't either.
... [ He's reminded of why he didn't want to talk about this in the first place, but it's too late now and Marc is as stubborn as he is. ] Because...
Because I was snapped out of whatever thoughts I had by Alexi bringing me my tea, that I always come in alone and
I realized I don't know how to answer those kinds of questions.
Because I was snapped out of whatever thoughts I had by Alexi bringing me my tea, that I always come in alone and
I realized I don't know how to answer those kinds of questions.
Gotcha.
[Marc probably shouldn't be pushing it but he knows Steven would be pushing him if he was upset, and he just... wants to make things better. Somehow. He isn't good at this at all but he's trying.]
You deserve to have something like that if you want it, Steven.
I thought you didn't though
unless you changed your mind
[Marc probably shouldn't be pushing it but he knows Steven would be pushing him if he was upset, and he just... wants to make things better. Somehow. He isn't good at this at all but he's trying.]
You deserve to have something like that if you want it, Steven.
I thought you didn't though
unless you changed your mind
I'm not immune to feeling alone. Even if I've got you, which makes me luckier than most. Romance is...
I mean, I think it's just part of human nature to want it.
I mean, I think it's just part of human nature to want it.
Sweet. But I'm decently sure if I eat any more I might have to do some of the working out and I'm enjoying my muscles with no effort lifestyle right now. [ He's got to lighten the mood somehow, right? Though it feels a little flat. ]
Don't you miss it?
Don't you miss it?
Anyone who thinks you aren't human hasn't seen you try to wait for someone walking too slow.
I just... haven't done a lot of that, and I think it will take some time to resign myself to knowing that I won't.
I just... haven't done a lot of that, and I think it will take some time to resign myself to knowing that I won't.
[ It's probably a little mad the way he just bursts into laughter, but hopefully people will just see the phone and leave it up to a comical text. Which isn't untrue. ] Patience is a virtue, yeah? Ahah.
I know. That's... that isn't really the problem. I feel more like it's my body than I think I have in a long time. It's just
complicated.
I know. That's... that isn't really the problem. I feel more like it's my body than I think I have in a long time. It's just
complicated.
Does it...
Is that really important? Does it
Does it matter?
Is that really important? Does it
Does it matter?
What? No, no. I'm sure they just give me extra because I come in at the end of the day.
I'm not going to act on it, so does it matter?
I'm not going to act on it, so does it matter?
What if I don't want things to change? Or what
What if trying to change things can make them so much worse than they are? What if you're happy with how they are?
What if trying to change things can make them so much worse than they are? What if you're happy with how they are?
No.
I don't think so anyway.
Why would you?
Not to be an arse about it but you're a bit of a self-sacrificing bastard, even if it was hurtful you probably wouldn't tell me.
Though it's kind of complicated, that.
Time spent in the body, dating or what have you.
I don't think so anyway.
Why would you?
Not to be an arse about it but you're a bit of a self-sacrificing bastard, even if it was hurtful you probably wouldn't tell me.
Though it's kind of complicated, that.
Time spent in the body, dating or what have you.
Right.
Well.
It's a bloke so...
Make of that what you will.
Well.
It's a bloke so...
Make of that what you will.
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