... [ He's reminded of why he didn't want to talk about this in the first place, but it's too late now and Marc is as stubborn as he is. ] Because...
Because I was snapped out of whatever thoughts I had by Alexi bringing me my tea, that I always come in alone and I realized I don't know how to answer those kinds of questions.
[Marc probably shouldn't be pushing it but he knows Steven would be pushing him if he was upset, and he just... wants to make things better. Somehow. He isn't good at this at all but he's trying.]
You deserve to have something like that if you want it, Steven. I thought you didn't though unless you changed your mind
I'm not immune to feeling alone. Even if I've got you, which makes me luckier than most. Romance is... I mean, I think it's just part of human nature to want it.
Sweet. But I'm decently sure if I eat any more I might have to do some of the working out and I'm enjoying my muscles with no effort lifestyle right now. [ He's got to lighten the mood somehow, right? Though it feels a little flat. ]
Anyone who thinks you aren't human hasn't seen you try to wait for someone walking too slow. I just... haven't done a lot of that, and I think it will take some time to resign myself to knowing that I won't.
[ It's probably a little mad the way he just bursts into laughter, but hopefully people will just see the phone and leave it up to a comical text. Which isn't untrue. ] Patience is a virtue, yeah? Ahah.
I know. That's... that isn't really the problem. I feel more like it's my body than I think I have in a long time. It's just complicated.
What if I don't want things to change? Or what What if trying to change things can make them so much worse than they are? What if you're happy with how they are?
No. I don't think so anyway. Why would you? Not to be an arse about it but you're a bit of a self-sacrificing bastard, even if it was hurtful you probably wouldn't tell me. Though it's kind of complicated, that. Time spent in the body, dating or what have you.
I'm just saying... if you like someone and you want to try I'm not here to stop you. I'm actually encouraging you. We can figure it out along the way like everything else right?
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why did it upset you?
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Because I was snapped out of whatever thoughts I had by Alexi bringing me my tea, that I always come in alone and
I realized I don't know how to answer those kinds of questions.
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[Marc probably shouldn't be pushing it but he knows Steven would be pushing him if he was upset, and he just... wants to make things better. Somehow. He isn't good at this at all but he's trying.]
You deserve to have something like that if you want it, Steven.
I thought you didn't though
unless you changed your mind
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I mean, I think it's just part of human nature to want it.
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I'm sorry it made you sad.
I can pick you up more candy if it helps.
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Don't you miss it?
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[They've promised to communicate better so Marc is trying not to run away from anything heavy. Really.]
Yeah sometimes.
despite contrary belief i'm also human
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I just... haven't done a lot of that, and I think it will take some time to resign myself to knowing that I won't.
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just choose a side!
I know we've talked about this before but this is your body too. You're allowed to do whatever will make you happy.
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I know. That's... that isn't really the problem. I feel more like it's my body than I think I have in a long time. It's just
complicated.
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but he's gonna]
Is there someone you like?
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Is that really important? Does it
Does it matter?
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it's that cute barista who always gives you extra scones, isn't it?
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I'm not going to act on it, so does it matter?
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nothing will change if you keep waiting and wishing and hoping.
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What if trying to change things can make them so much worse than they are? What if you're happy with how they are?
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Things are okay right now. You're worried I'll get upset if you find someone?
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I don't think so anyway.
Why would you?
Not to be an arse about it but you're a bit of a self-sacrificing bastard, even if it was hurtful you probably wouldn't tell me.
Though it's kind of complicated, that.
Time spent in the body, dating or what have you.
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if you like someone and you want to try
I'm not here to stop you. I'm actually encouraging you.
We can figure it out along the way like everything else right?
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Well.
It's a bloke so...
Make of that what you will.
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[the fact that it's a guy doesn't bother him - who is Marc to judge?]
I'd make guesses but I don't think you'd actually tell me
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Don't make it a game, you won't win.
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oh you sweet summer child Marc]You sure about that?
there's only so many people you see enough day to day...
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asdoihsdoiasd i can't believe you've done this to me
I can be given no leeway
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