[He wants it to be more than this. He wants to be there to kiss Steven, to map every inch of his body with his lips, touch every inch of him with both hands until he's falling apart underneath him, until he's shuddering apart and crying in pleasure, and none of those little worries or anxieties can touch him.
Until they're each other's whole world and nothing exists outside of their tangled limbs.
But they can't have that, especially right now, so the hand moving over Steven, tugging up his shirt to smooth over the skin underneath will have to do. It's somehow familiar and not, all at the same time. Nails rake over his stomach bluntly, teasing.]
You have no idea, all the things I've thought about doing with you, to you. [He moves down to start opening the other's pants. Slow. There's no rush. He doesn't want to spook Steven.]
[ It's a breathy sound, interrupted by a laugh, just a tinge of ticklish near the sides of his stomach but it melts back into a groan soon enough. The pressure of it is welcome, there's no mistaking that. He sinks down a little further, he can't help himself and there's something so heady about letting himself get stuck in the moment. Maybe part of it is just being allowed to get out of his head for a few seconds, to focus on Marc and nothing else. It's hard to say, maybe he'll have more to think about later, more to say, but for now this is all he wants. Needs. ]
No-- wish I did though. [ A breathless laugh, something caught up in his throat, struggling to get out between the puffed breaths he drags in to try and slow his heart down. But it's not panic, not like it usually was with him, it's every nerve being on fire, every inkling of excitement that he had rising to the surface, refusing to be surpressed now that it was happening. ]
I've got you. [ He agrees, practically vibrating at the sound of his belt falling unclasped, another nervous laugh, filled with too much energy escaping. ] And you've got me. Any and all of me you want. [ Again it feels too confessional but he can't stop himself. The hand not under Marc's control fisting so hard in the couch he can feel his knuckles pop, but all the same he manages to keep quiet.
[He relishes every noise, every stutter of breath that leaves Steven. He wishes he could see him, watch every twitch or squirm, watch everything he's feeling play across his face.
But he contents himself with teasing fingertips under the waistband of Steven's pants once they're open, curious if they'll like the same things, if Steven will have different spots he's sensitive in, different areas he wants Marc's hands.]
Let's see... [He hums thoughtfully as his hand slides a bit further into Steven's pants, fingertips flattening against his skin, deliberately just letting them rest there for now.]
I've wanted to wake you up just like this, with my hand on you... maybe my mouth. Slowly wake you up with kisses and pleasure until all you can do is gasp my name and beg for more. [His hand slides back out of his pants in favor of hitching Steven's shirt up further, until he's exposed and Marc can tease his fingers down over Steven's chest.]
You ever been with a guy before, Steven? I mean, you sounded pretty sure of those epic blowjobs... [He can't help the tease, a soft, short chuckle leaving him.]
You ever think of more than that? Getting inside of me, me being inside of you...
[ It's like his head is filled with fuzz, a dull hum that cottons his ears and makes his heart press into his ribcage. The tease of fingers it really more than he can take, and for a second he wants to laugh when Marc pulls up, but instead all that comes out is a low, aching sort of moan. Something he tries to swallow when it's halfway out but it still manages to slip from between his teeth. ] Shit. [ The curse escapes, sharp, fingers twitching, vision rocking just slightly with how hard his heart is thudding against his ribs. ] Bit cruel, yeah? [ Another little laugh, because he doesn't really mind, can't even manage to sound like he does.
Though the questions make him stir, and maybe he takes a little bit too long to answer. ] I-- [ His brows knit, pulling together and then up as he deflates a little. ] No, not-- no. [ And it tumbles out because he's not sure if it's more embarrassing to explain why he's sure or his own inexperience. ]
How couldn't I? [ The cool air makes his skin feel tighter, or maybe that's those teasing fingers and he can't help when he finally releases that iron grip in favor of skimming up over his own hip. Gripping himself a little too tightly through his pants, like he can manage to take some of the edge off. ] I wanted, I want to take you apart, to give you that relief. No pain, no stress, just me, overwhelming every bit of you till you're a-at peace. [ A swallow as his leg lifts, planting against the coffee table, giving it a bit of a push. ]
I don't care how, I just want you. Wanted you. For too long.
Trust me, Steven... this isn't anywhere near cruel for me. [He could make him wait until he's so desperate, he's crying. He could edge him close to release over and over and over again without ever letting him get there. But he won't. He just wants this to be nice for Steven.
There's a quiet huff. Of course he's inexperienced -- although he does wonder about the blowjob thing. Not too hard, because it makes him feel heated in a less pleasurable way. He can feel jealousy gnaw at him at the thought of anyone else touching Steven, getting what Marc wants so desperately.
He needs to work on those possessive tendencies, he knows, but it's not going to be right now.
Right now, he's just dragging his hand back down Steven's body, back to his trousers. It's still slow-- palming over Steven firmly, taking his time and at least trying to not overwhelm Steven with too much, too soon.]
Take in a breath, Steven... I'm gonna give you whatever I can, promise.
[ He wants to ask about it, opens his mouth to do so but the huff makes him bite his cheek, nervous and he doesn't know why. Having a sex drive isn't something to be ashamed of, right? Why is it they shared the same body but talking to Marc about it made him feel like he's going to burn up from the inside out.
His hips lift before he can stop himself even when Marc gets close. ] Sorry. Sorry. [ He swallows hard, choking the feeling down and planting his hips again, but he feels painfully sensitive. He stutters out a softer, embarrassed apology though he's not entirely sure why as the slow palming makes him twitch in his pants.
He's going to lose his mind. ] Marc. [ His name is bitten out, almost sweetly as he does as he's told. It's too easy, too good, a suck of breath does a little to calm his nerves but he doesn't mind. He feels like it's been eons since he's been touched, though it reminds him of Duat, of the warmth, of not being alone. It's a complex feeling and he doesn't have the ability to process it now. ]
I know-- I know, I trust you. [ He repeats, not really needing to say it but he's never been good at keeping his mouth shut. ] K-keep talking, please? [ It's a less sure request, more to the point than his earlier utterances, but he wants to hear that voice in his ear. Imagine the weight dipping on the couch. Marc's irritatingly talented hands on him. It's mental, he's mental, but he's fine with that if he gets a little taste of this. ]
It's okay. Don't apologize. [He murmurs encouragingly. He likes this. He likes how wrecked Steven already is, how needy. Every twitch, every jerk of his body is satisfying in its own way. Marc wants to see it, again and again, for the rest of their lives.
Palming becomes something more soon enough after he draws Steven out properly. Long, firm strokes over his cock, his thumb rubbing over the tip every once in a while on an upstroke.]
I don't want you to hold back, Steven... just let yourself go. It's okay. [He'll keep talking if that's what Steven wants, keep up the encouraging little words while he jerks him off - and hates that he can't be there properly. That he can't do more for Steven, give him everything he wants and more.]
You're driving me crazy, buddy. I bet I could keep you in bed a week and not get tired of finding new ways to make you squirm.
[ A small, cut-off scoff escapes him at the idea of letting himself go. For some reason it seemed more frightening than appealing, like he'd do something wrong, say something wrong or worse not do something right and have to wallow in his embarrassment.
The hand that had been gripping on finds his mouth, teeth digging into the meat of it to try and keep quiet. He's already feeling too heady, too messy, each stroke now made easier with what he felt like was an embarrassing amount of precum already. For all his fantasies maybe he should have practiced this part better, though he never expected it to become an actuality. ]
Why are you so bloody hot? [ He demands an answer to a question that he's already figured out, at least parts of it. Finally, he pulls his hand away and there's no denying the lingering impression of teeth there as he actually whimpers into the back of it at the mention of being trapped in bed with Marc for a week. ] D-don't think I'd let you off so easy.
I'm a fast learner. [ And he'd figure out whatever way he could to make sure he satisfied Marc, he just needed to pry apart all the little things he liked. ]
[There's a breathy chuckle at that demand. He's not sure he'd call himself hot, but-- he's not arguing it if Steven wants to think it, if it'll let him be part of this. The earnest responses, the cut off noises-- oh, this is worth it.
Maybe it's debauched, but it's worth it.]
Maybe we need to add to that one cuff, Steven, if you're gonna keep that up. You'd look pretty anyway, strapped down to the bed, at my mercy. [Not that he'd take advantage, necessarily. But he'd make certain Steven is thoroughly satisfied.
Although--]
Or maybe you'd like me held down. Trust me, Steven, I have no doubt you'd be able to take me apart, learn everything you could to have me moaning your name.
[ It's a near pathetic noise that escapes at the 'threat', the pulse of desire that ran through him was swift and unrelenting. His hand presses in, the back of it smearing against his mouth as he tries to keep his moan muffled, face heating so quickly it made him dizzy. He didn't know if he had enough blood in his body to handle Marc saying things like that. The whimpers that follow are hard to hear over the wet sounds of him jerking his hips up into Marc's fist. He wasn't going to be able to handle him talking like that for long.
Never mind how he felt outing himself about all the filthy things he's into. ] Mmmarc-- [ A rough sound, the scrape of his foot against the floor as he just sunk his head back, letting his mouth falling open, his panting loud in the quiet room. ] I just w-ant to make you happy-- [ It's so cheesy, naive even, but he can't help himself. Whatever he wanted wasn't nearly as important to him as being able to be what Marc wants, needs.
A hot, wet breath skims over his skin, the sounds muffled and tight as he shakes his head, though he doesn't know at what. He's struggling to think past the fact-- ] I'm-- I can't-- [ It's a strangled, embarrassed noise because he honestly knows he's not lasting near as long as he'd like because he can't control himself, can't resist how wrapped around the idea of Marc touching him he was. ]
[Leave it to Steven to make this moment-- sappy, to make Marc pause momentarily, warmth spreading through him at those earnest words. It's cheesy and sappy and-- well, it's very Steven. That's what makes it so... striking. Something so important to him.
And as much as he's enjoying the writhing around, the way Steven uselessly tries to plant his feet, the way he rocks into Marc's hand with such urgency -- and he's picking up which things seem to get him into this space, which words send him whimpering.]
You always make me happy. [He promises, his tone a little softer, a little quiet even as his fist tightens around Steven's length, doing everything he can to coax him over the edge, send him falling apart.]
It's okay, Steven... c'mon, just let go. I want you to come for me, don't hold it back. Let me hear how good you feel. [This is probably all so very wrong, but-- if Steven wants it, likes it, then it's. Got to be fine. Right? It's okay.
Or maybe not. But that's something to fret about later, to worry about in his own time. Right now, he just wants to enjoy this, he wants to know that he's giving Steven something good, something he wants after doing the opposite for so long.]
[ Maybe he'd be less of a mess over it if he understood why Marc stopped, even if it's just a brief pause it's enough for him to drag a hand up over his own face and into his hair. Mussing those already disasterously fluffy curls. How was he supposed to keep it together like this? Of course then Marc replies and it's all a rush in his brain, he can hear his heartbeat thudding against his ears, and maybe it's a good thing that Marc's voice is in his head because it's hard to hear anything else.
He wants to say something smart, or clever or even apropriately sexy-- but there's a short in his brain and all he can do is be noisy in a way he hates. When he had thought he was alone and bothered touching himself it was always quietly, in bed, biting back every sound till he finished with a half grunt and scurried off to clean himself up. It was so different with someone else involved, but more than that it was probably Marc who made the most difference. He wanted to comply with anything he asked, and more over wanted him to know how good he made him feel.
Or so that's the excuse his brain will fill in for why he can't keep quiet now, hitching breaths and a bottled up tension finally, brokenly, falling apart. It's a mess, he can feel it all over his stomach, some on his thighs and the noise he makes is shaky at best. He can't even tell what he's saying, a broken sort of muttering, maybe just pleasure maybe Marc's name, it's like a tap burst and eventually it leaves him tender and exhausted.
A pleading noise is twisted out after a second, stilling bonelessly, straining to catch his breath. ]
[His hand slows and stops once he's sure he's wrung out every drop of pleasure for Steven, when he's bonelessly lying back on the bed. It isn't much later that Steven will find his arm back under his control.]
You were amazing.
[That's-- really all Marc knows to say, but it's the truth. He just wishes he could be there to take care of him, clean him up, wrap around him.]
[ He lifts his hand, inspecting the mess on it before dropping it back on his stomach. Normally he'd be in a hurry to get up and clean off, right now though, all he wants to do is lay here and listen to Marc.
Well, that and kiss him but he knows saying that will just make the mood a little sour and he's too sated to risk it. ] Mmhm. I'm great. Better than. [ A breathy laugh as he reaches up, tugging the shirt he had on up and over, using it to clean himself off before tossing it on the floor.
That was a problem for later-Steven. ] You? Can't imagine it's... terribly satisfying in there. Mh-- [ A rub to his mouth, feeling the indents of his own teeth in his lip, tingling now. ] Never feels quite like that when I do it myself.
Trust me, feeling perfectly satisfied with that show. [Maybe he didn't get off-- or well. That all gets a bit complicated, doesn't it? But either way, he's feeling rather content now, comfortable.
Maybe a little like he'd enjoy touching Steven more, give him a proper kiss. But that can't happen, so he tries not to dwell on it.]
Of course-- you wanna return the favor sometime, let me know. [It's meant to be a tease, a joke. Something to keep the mood light, just a little bit.]
Not fair, putting an image like that in my head, Steven. [Him doing anything himself-- he can't deny the curiosity to see that.]
[ He's glad for it, because it seems complicated and his ability to think it through and make any kind of an assessment is hazy at best. He's not totally out of it, the more time that passes but he's also not in a hurry to leave behind that stupor.
It might have seemed like he nodded off if Marc hadn't mentioned returning the favor. One eyebrow lifting up and the corner of his mouth curled up. ] Tease. [ A sweet, low laugh slips free, something a bit too fond but he can't help himself right now. ]
I think it's perfectly fair, since you've near ruined it for me. [ His brow drops, furrowing a bit as another chuckle dies in his chest. Finally cracking his eyes open to stare up at the roof, as much as it sends a pang of longing through him, he can't escape reality forever. ]
You ought to worry less about that mate, than what I'm going to do when I've finally got my hands on you in return. [ A drag of short-cropped nails over his stomach, scraping against the skin as he sighs. He'd make up for what he lacked in experience with enthusiasm, and creativity, hopefully. ] To boot, if you wanted to see, all you have to do is ask.
[ A choked half-laugh escapes, his 'clean' hand rubbing over his face, up into his hair, back down to settle gains this chest lazily. ] It might not be news to you, but there's a world of difference between doing it for yourself and... not. [ He didn't have a lot to compare it to, admittedly, and was a bit to embarrassed to divulge that he's sure a large part of it is the unusual crush he's been harboring on Marc for longer than was probably acceptable.
He nods, though he has no idea if Marc can even gleen a view of him here, clearing his throat to find his voice. ] I've got to up the ante a bit, haven't I? [ He pauses, trying to think back to whatever obscene fanties that had plagued him in the past, toes nudging gently under the sheets as he finally cools off. ] Though, in the sake of not being an absolute twat, maybe you ought to tell me a bit of what you actually like, yeah? [ Last thing he wanted to do was screw things up, and as awkward as it is to ask it's a lot less awkward than giving either of them some kind of anxiety attack of it.
The mention of a mirror gets a grin, and a hum. ] Read my mind, actually. Suppose once I actually... get out of bed, I can manage that.
[He wants to point out that it was technically-- still his hand. But he's not bringing down the mood with that, not right now. He gets Steven's meaning anyway.] Trust me, Steven, I know.
[What does he like? He's not-- sure it'll be anything Steven actually likes. Even with Layla, things tended to be rough and hard and intense. Steven was getting flustered enough by a handjob... he doesn't want to ruin things. He doesn't want to make him regret any of this if he can help it.] You don't have to worry about freaking me out, you know. You'd never hurt me... I trust you. I'd be happy with just your hand on me and your voice in my ear.
[He's trying to not ask for-- more than Steven will be able to give.] Maybe I just want to sit in front of that mirror you're gonna grab, so I can watch every expression you give while you sit and touch me however you want, yeah?
Right. [ Is that embarrassment? Feels like it. He really needs to take a few seconds and think through what he says, now that he as a bit of wit back in his head. ] I mean, I can do that of course. [ That wasn't much of a problem, really, he's got to practice that sort of fine control; fronting was one thing, but he'd not gotten nearly as good at taking up a limb. Though it'll probably pose less of a problem if Marc's letting it happen than whatever struggle for dominance it had been before. ]
Yeah. [ A little heave of a breath, but then he's finally rocking forward, sliding off of the bed and stretching his arms up. Kicking the shirt over toward the pile of laundry he's 'meant to do' for the last day or two, edging into the bathroom. For a bit he's just quiet, snatching up a toothbrush and toothpaste, laying on a little too much and shoving it into his mouth. ] You said maybe. [ His hand grasps the end of the brush, and he's just gliding it over his teeth when his gaze flickers up to the mirror, and maybe it's a little accusing, but more than that he sounds... amused? It's hard to say because he's back to brushing his teeth with one hand and rooting around for a washcloth with the other. ]
You're funny sometimes Marc. [ A little rumble of a laugh from him as he turns the water back on, waiting for it to warm up enough. ] But I'd like that anyway.
I'm funny? [He shakes his head, lips curling up as he watches Steven in the mirror.]
Look-- I'm just trying to give you options. You're-- [Shit, he doesn't want to sound ridiculous and sappy, but.] special, you know. I want you to feel like you are. This isn't the usual hook up I might've done in the past. And it's not--
[Like with Layla is what he means to say, but he doesn't want to make things weird with Steven, or make him think it's a comparison.] You know what I mean. You're already giving me so much more than I'd hoped for, just not... demanding I go away or something..
[He always thought Steven would want him to if he found out what he was thinking about him.]
Yeah, I don't think you mean to be, though. [ And he's clearly taunting now, not that he'll make eye contact to confirm it. Rinsing the brush he pauses with it hanging out of his mouth to run the cloth under the water and to wash his hand off. He should take a proper shower, honestly, but right now he's just in the mood to get moving, so he idles, waffling on his options. ]
Sweet. [ And it's a little bit of a joke, too, till he realizes Marc is serious and he comes up short. ] I mean, is anything between us the usual? [ A little laugh before he leans down, spitting into the sink and cupping some water to rinse his mouth out, it gives him time to pick out his words. And to once again avoid eye contact when he speaks. ]
Marc, if there's one thing I do not want it's you going away. [ A little laugh, but it's weaker as he washes his face off, tossing the toothbrush back into the cup. ] I mean, I can't-- I don't have the experience to really say, but I do know you're something special, too. Even if you're too stubborn to see it.
I'm not going anywhere... [Not any time soon, anyway. He huffs out a sigh, rolling his shoulders a little in the reflection of the mirror. He's not going to argue about whether he should or shouldn't be special to Steven. All he does is offer up a tight lipped smile.
He might have blown through his five words for the day. Steven's always the better one at talking.
That said--]
C'mon, buddy. Get in the shower. [He can nudge him into taking care of himself properly.]
[ There's a lingering moment where it seems like he might say something but chooses not to, instead he seems to be considering the offer. ]
Yeah, yeah, you're right. [ A tired drawl escapes his lips before he shakes himself up a bit. One hand yet again combs through those curls as he drifts toward the shower, turning the water on.
For a second he really just stands there staring at the tiles before he nods. Tag in, right. It was better to share some little bits in the day, he thought, if only because being in the dark was still stressful as far as he was concerned.
Sure they could share too, but it was easier to delegate sometimes. A little breathy sound escapes before he closes his eyes, and tries his best to relax and facilitate a full switch. ]
[Marc-- doesn't mind it, really. Maybe he should. Maybe he shouldn't be content with living in the shadows, taking over when Steven needs him to. He comes out, of course. But there's something... comforting about withdrawing.
But he also doesn't mind taking over to take care of Steven a little bit. There's a brief glimpse over to the mirror, a slight smile, before he's going to get the water started and heated up, a sigh passing his lips.]
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Until they're each other's whole world and nothing exists outside of their tangled limbs.
But they can't have that, especially right now, so the hand moving over Steven, tugging up his shirt to smooth over the skin underneath will have to do. It's somehow familiar and not, all at the same time. Nails rake over his stomach bluntly, teasing.]
You have no idea, all the things I've thought about doing with you, to you. [He moves down to start opening the other's pants. Slow. There's no rush. He doesn't want to spook Steven.]
You're not alone, Steven.
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No-- wish I did though. [ A breathless laugh, something caught up in his throat, struggling to get out between the puffed breaths he drags in to try and slow his heart down. But it's not panic, not like it usually was with him, it's every nerve being on fire, every inkling of excitement that he had rising to the surface, refusing to be surpressed now that it was happening. ]
I've got you. [ He agrees, practically vibrating at the sound of his belt falling unclasped, another nervous laugh, filled with too much energy escaping. ] And you've got me. Any and all of me you want. [ Again it feels too confessional but he can't stop himself. The hand not under Marc's control fisting so hard in the couch he can feel his knuckles pop, but all the same he manages to keep quiet.
Mostly. ] Tell me?
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But he contents himself with teasing fingertips under the waistband of Steven's pants once they're open, curious if they'll like the same things, if Steven will have different spots he's sensitive in, different areas he wants Marc's hands.]
Let's see... [He hums thoughtfully as his hand slides a bit further into Steven's pants, fingertips flattening against his skin, deliberately just letting them rest there for now.]
I've wanted to wake you up just like this, with my hand on you... maybe my mouth. Slowly wake you up with kisses and pleasure until all you can do is gasp my name and beg for more. [His hand slides back out of his pants in favor of hitching Steven's shirt up further, until he's exposed and Marc can tease his fingers down over Steven's chest.]
You ever been with a guy before, Steven? I mean, you sounded pretty sure of those epic blowjobs... [He can't help the tease, a soft, short chuckle leaving him.]
You ever think of more than that? Getting inside of me, me being inside of you...
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Though the questions make him stir, and maybe he takes a little bit too long to answer. ] I-- [ His brows knit, pulling together and then up as he deflates a little. ] No, not-- no. [ And it tumbles out because he's not sure if it's more embarrassing to explain why he's sure or his own inexperience. ]
How couldn't I? [ The cool air makes his skin feel tighter, or maybe that's those teasing fingers and he can't help when he finally releases that iron grip in favor of skimming up over his own hip. Gripping himself a little too tightly through his pants, like he can manage to take some of the edge off. ] I wanted, I want to take you apart, to give you that relief. No pain, no stress, just me, overwhelming every bit of you till you're a-at peace. [ A swallow as his leg lifts, planting against the coffee table, giving it a bit of a push. ]
I don't care how, I just want you. Wanted you. For too long.
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There's a quiet huff. Of course he's inexperienced -- although he does wonder about the blowjob thing. Not too hard, because it makes him feel heated in a less pleasurable way. He can feel jealousy gnaw at him at the thought of anyone else touching Steven, getting what Marc wants so desperately.
He needs to work on those possessive tendencies, he knows, but it's not going to be right now.
Right now, he's just dragging his hand back down Steven's body, back to his trousers. It's still slow-- palming over Steven firmly, taking his time and at least trying to not overwhelm Steven with too much, too soon.]
Take in a breath, Steven... I'm gonna give you whatever I can, promise.
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His hips lift before he can stop himself even when Marc gets close. ] Sorry. Sorry. [ He swallows hard, choking the feeling down and planting his hips again, but he feels painfully sensitive. He stutters out a softer, embarrassed apology though he's not entirely sure why as the slow palming makes him twitch in his pants.
He's going to lose his mind. ] Marc. [ His name is bitten out, almost sweetly as he does as he's told. It's too easy, too good, a suck of breath does a little to calm his nerves but he doesn't mind. He feels like it's been eons since he's been touched, though it reminds him of Duat, of the warmth, of not being alone. It's a complex feeling and he doesn't have the ability to process it now. ]
I know-- I know, I trust you. [ He repeats, not really needing to say it but he's never been good at keeping his mouth shut. ] K-keep talking, please? [ It's a less sure request, more to the point than his earlier utterances, but he wants to hear that voice in his ear. Imagine the weight dipping on the couch. Marc's irritatingly talented hands on him. It's mental, he's mental, but he's fine with that if he gets a little taste of this. ]
I need to hear you.
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Palming becomes something more soon enough after he draws Steven out properly. Long, firm strokes over his cock, his thumb rubbing over the tip every once in a while on an upstroke.]
I don't want you to hold back, Steven... just let yourself go. It's okay. [He'll keep talking if that's what Steven wants, keep up the encouraging little words while he jerks him off - and hates that he can't be there properly. That he can't do more for Steven, give him everything he wants and more.]
You're driving me crazy, buddy. I bet I could keep you in bed a week and not get tired of finding new ways to make you squirm.
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The hand that had been gripping on finds his mouth, teeth digging into the meat of it to try and keep quiet. He's already feeling too heady, too messy, each stroke now made easier with what he felt like was an embarrassing amount of precum already. For all his fantasies maybe he should have practiced this part better, though he never expected it to become an actuality. ]
Why are you so bloody hot? [ He demands an answer to a question that he's already figured out, at least parts of it. Finally, he pulls his hand away and there's no denying the lingering impression of teeth there as he actually whimpers into the back of it at the mention of being trapped in bed with Marc for a week. ] D-don't think I'd let you off so easy.
I'm a fast learner. [ And he'd figure out whatever way he could to make sure he satisfied Marc, he just needed to pry apart all the little things he liked. ]
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Maybe it's debauched, but it's worth it.]
Maybe we need to add to that one cuff, Steven, if you're gonna keep that up. You'd look pretty anyway, strapped down to the bed, at my mercy. [Not that he'd take advantage, necessarily. But he'd make certain Steven is thoroughly satisfied.
Although--]
Or maybe you'd like me held down. Trust me, Steven, I have no doubt you'd be able to take me apart, learn everything you could to have me moaning your name.
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Never mind how he felt outing himself about all the filthy things he's into. ] Mmmarc-- [ A rough sound, the scrape of his foot against the floor as he just sunk his head back, letting his mouth falling open, his panting loud in the quiet room. ] I just w-ant to make you happy-- [ It's so cheesy, naive even, but he can't help himself. Whatever he wanted wasn't nearly as important to him as being able to be what Marc wants, needs.
A hot, wet breath skims over his skin, the sounds muffled and tight as he shakes his head, though he doesn't know at what. He's struggling to think past the fact-- ] I'm-- I can't-- [ It's a strangled, embarrassed noise because he honestly knows he's not lasting near as long as he'd like because he can't control himself, can't resist how wrapped around the idea of Marc touching him he was. ]
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And as much as he's enjoying the writhing around, the way Steven uselessly tries to plant his feet, the way he rocks into Marc's hand with such urgency -- and he's picking up which things seem to get him into this space, which words send him whimpering.]
You always make me happy. [He promises, his tone a little softer, a little quiet even as his fist tightens around Steven's length, doing everything he can to coax him over the edge, send him falling apart.]
It's okay, Steven... c'mon, just let go. I want you to come for me, don't hold it back. Let me hear how good you feel. [This is probably all so very wrong, but-- if Steven wants it, likes it, then it's. Got to be fine. Right? It's okay.
Or maybe not. But that's something to fret about later, to worry about in his own time. Right now, he just wants to enjoy this, he wants to know that he's giving Steven something good, something he wants after doing the opposite for so long.]
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He wants to say something smart, or clever or even apropriately sexy-- but there's a short in his brain and all he can do is be noisy in a way he hates. When he had thought he was alone and bothered touching himself it was always quietly, in bed, biting back every sound till he finished with a half grunt and scurried off to clean himself up. It was so different with someone else involved, but more than that it was probably Marc who made the most difference. He wanted to comply with anything he asked, and more over wanted him to know how good he made him feel.
Or so that's the excuse his brain will fill in for why he can't keep quiet now, hitching breaths and a bottled up tension finally, brokenly, falling apart. It's a mess, he can feel it all over his stomach, some on his thighs and the noise he makes is shaky at best. He can't even tell what he's saying, a broken sort of muttering, maybe just pleasure maybe Marc's name, it's like a tap burst and eventually it leaves him tender and exhausted.
A pleading noise is twisted out after a second, stilling bonelessly, straining to catch his breath. ]
Oh my stars-
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You were amazing.
[That's-- really all Marc knows to say, but it's the truth. He just wishes he could be there to take care of him, clean him up, wrap around him.]
You okay, Steven?
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Well, that and kiss him but he knows saying that will just make the mood a little sour and he's too sated to risk it. ] Mmhm. I'm great. Better than. [ A breathy laugh as he reaches up, tugging the shirt he had on up and over, using it to clean himself off before tossing it on the floor.
That was a problem for later-Steven. ] You? Can't imagine it's... terribly satisfying in there. Mh-- [ A rub to his mouth, feeling the indents of his own teeth in his lip, tingling now. ] Never feels quite like that when I do it myself.
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Maybe a little like he'd enjoy touching Steven more, give him a proper kiss. But that can't happen, so he tries not to dwell on it.]
Of course-- you wanna return the favor sometime, let me know. [It's meant to be a tease, a joke. Something to keep the mood light, just a little bit.]
Not fair, putting an image like that in my head, Steven. [Him doing anything himself-- he can't deny the curiosity to see that.]
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It might have seemed like he nodded off if Marc hadn't mentioned returning the favor. One eyebrow lifting up and the corner of his mouth curled up. ] Tease. [ A sweet, low laugh slips free, something a bit too fond but he can't help himself right now. ]
I think it's perfectly fair, since you've near ruined it for me. [ His brow drops, furrowing a bit as another chuckle dies in his chest. Finally cracking his eyes open to stare up at the roof, as much as it sends a pang of longing through him, he can't escape reality forever. ]
You ought to worry less about that mate, than what I'm going to do when I've finally got my hands on you in return. [ A drag of short-cropped nails over his stomach, scraping against the skin as he sighs. He'd make up for what he lacked in experience with enthusiasm, and creativity, hopefully. ] To boot, if you wanted to see, all you have to do is ask.
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[He can't help but tease a little bit, but-- he's glad that Steven enjoyed it. He's glad that they were able to have-- something at least.
... And that 'threat' definitely piques his interest.] Yeah? Mm, are you gonna tell me what you're planning or do I have to wait and be surprised?
[He pauses at that next offer. Steven's gonna end up driving him insane.] Yeah?
... Maybe we should invest in a bigger mirror. [Not going to be the same thing, but at least Steven will see his eyes on him, yeah?]
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He nods, though he has no idea if Marc can even gleen a view of him here, clearing his throat to find his voice. ] I've got to up the ante a bit, haven't I? [ He pauses, trying to think back to whatever obscene fanties that had plagued him in the past, toes nudging gently under the sheets as he finally cools off. ] Though, in the sake of not being an absolute twat, maybe you ought to tell me a bit of what you actually like, yeah? [ Last thing he wanted to do was screw things up, and as awkward as it is to ask it's a lot less awkward than giving either of them some kind of anxiety attack of it.
The mention of a mirror gets a grin, and a hum. ] Read my mind, actually. Suppose once I actually... get out of bed, I can manage that.
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[What does he like? He's not-- sure it'll be anything Steven actually likes. Even with Layla, things tended to be rough and hard and intense. Steven was getting flustered enough by a handjob... he doesn't want to ruin things. He doesn't want to make him regret any of this if he can help it.] You don't have to worry about freaking me out, you know. You'd never hurt me... I trust you. I'd be happy with just your hand on me and your voice in my ear.
[He's trying to not ask for-- more than Steven will be able to give.] Maybe I just want to sit in front of that mirror you're gonna grab, so I can watch every expression you give while you sit and touch me however you want, yeah?
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Yeah. [ A little heave of a breath, but then he's finally rocking forward, sliding off of the bed and stretching his arms up. Kicking the shirt over toward the pile of laundry he's 'meant to do' for the last day or two, edging into the bathroom. For a bit he's just quiet, snatching up a toothbrush and toothpaste, laying on a little too much and shoving it into his mouth. ] You said maybe. [ His hand grasps the end of the brush, and he's just gliding it over his teeth when his gaze flickers up to the mirror, and maybe it's a little accusing, but more than that he sounds... amused? It's hard to say because he's back to brushing his teeth with one hand and rooting around for a washcloth with the other. ]
You're funny sometimes Marc. [ A little rumble of a laugh from him as he turns the water back on, waiting for it to warm up enough. ] But I'd like that anyway.
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Look-- I'm just trying to give you options. You're-- [Shit, he doesn't want to sound ridiculous and sappy, but.] special, you know. I want you to feel like you are. This isn't the usual hook up I might've done in the past. And it's not--
[Like with Layla is what he means to say, but he doesn't want to make things weird with Steven, or make him think it's a comparison.] You know what I mean. You're already giving me so much more than I'd hoped for, just not... demanding I go away or something..
[He always thought Steven would want him to if he found out what he was thinking about him.]
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Sweet. [ And it's a little bit of a joke, too, till he realizes Marc is serious and he comes up short. ] I mean, is anything between us the usual? [ A little laugh before he leans down, spitting into the sink and cupping some water to rinse his mouth out, it gives him time to pick out his words. And to once again avoid eye contact when he speaks. ]
Marc, if there's one thing I do not want it's you going away. [ A little laugh, but it's weaker as he washes his face off, tossing the toothbrush back into the cup. ] I mean, I can't-- I don't have the experience to really say, but I do know you're something special, too. Even if you're too stubborn to see it.
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He might have blown through his five words for the day. Steven's always the better one at talking.
That said--]
C'mon, buddy. Get in the shower. [He can nudge him into taking care of himself properly.]
Or let me tag in and do it.
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Yeah, yeah, you're right. [ A tired drawl escapes his lips before he shakes himself up a bit. One hand yet again combs through those curls as he drifts toward the shower, turning the water on.
For a second he really just stands there staring at the tiles before he nods. Tag in, right. It was better to share some little bits in the day, he thought, if only because being in the dark was still stressful as far as he was concerned.
Sure they could share too, but it was easier to delegate sometimes. A little breathy sound escapes before he closes his eyes, and tries his best to relax and facilitate a full switch. ]
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But he also doesn't mind taking over to take care of Steven a little bit. There's a brief glimpse over to the mirror, a slight smile, before he's going to get the water started and heated up, a sigh passing his lips.]
We'll get to bed after this, alright?
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